I have always been truly amazed at how life can seem so rich at what should be the hardest times. I am going through a divorce with Levi and although it's not easy everyday and there are tons of things to work out and I am sure more will come in the future, it is amazing how at peace I feel with the whole thing.
I have been double blessed to have some truly wonderful people in my life right now who love me very much and have done so generously and unselfishly. I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude towards them today for seeing me vulnerable and becoming soft places for me to land. I am a very independent and strong person and I have never truly had to depend on others before for much of anything, its a bit scary to be so vulnerable and a bit needy. I feel immensely loved.
Another blessing is that the boys are doing so well and are so resilient. Its not as if our lives have always been easy- peasy anyway, they have had to deal with some tough stuff before; having a mother with depression, an absent father, moving around lots, etc. but I still worried about how they would do. The boys are adjusting really well to being in public school and the new schedule to their days. They seem to be handling the separation as well as can be expected for their ages. I am hoping with some more stability they will thrive in their new lives too.
There is still so much to get done and so many changes still to come. Its a great comfort to know that no matter what happens I am never alone and in my weakness I am really all the more stronger and happier and loved.